Admittedly my thoughts have been somewhat scattered on the subject because my darling son is teething like crazy right now and hasn't slept for more than 3 hours at a time in over a month, but here's what I've come up with so far.
I want to live intentionally.
By which I mean that I want to take the time to notice the little things in my life.
(I told you this wasn't going to be rocket science.)
As far as I can tell, intentions can go one of two ways. You can intend to do something and actually do it, or you can have all the best intentions and keep going on the way things always have been.
The boy-o is 10 months old now, and watching how fast he is changing and growing up is what sparked these musings. I want to be intentional about the time I spend with him. I'm his primary caregiver while Paul is at work, and some days that's not so easy. Staying home with an infant is isolating and lonely and there are days when you feel like you'll never be able to put your boobs back in your shirt and have an adult conversation ever again. (I hear that strippers have a similar problem.) Then, once the kiddo is bigger, you might feel like you'll never be able to get anything done again because he is into EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. If it's not the oven broiler drawer it's the dog's water bowl. (You don't realize how much water is actually in there until it's all on the floor. Five dishtowels-worth, in case you were wondering, and then the floor is *still* wet because you've run out of dishtowels you're willing to mop the floor with.)
But there are a lot of awesome moments, too. He learned to clap his hands a few weeks ago, and now we get a round of applause when we walk into the same room he's in. That feels pretty good. He also learned to high-five from a friend of ours at the farmers' market, and that's charming, too. He imitates our "HAH!" when we're playing with him, and he knows how the lizard goes (picture an adorable 10 month old boy poking his tongue in and out of his mouth as fast as he possibly can. That's comedy gold.). He delights in his new-found skills of putting objects into bowls and dumping them out again. He loves the water. He watches everything and tries to figure it all out. He's learned to pet Penny gently, and the two of them share toys (... we're working on building good immune systems?) and genuinely seem to get a kick out of each other.
I want to remember all of that.
And more than remembering it, I want to enjoy it while it's happening, too. I intend to do that.